♥ Cause Love Isnt Easy To Find ♥

2008-09-23T19:57:00.003+08:00

no mood no mood!
daddy hunting for me!

i admit i'm scared of daddy
cause his scary!!!
somone help me please...
i've got nothing else to pray for
except for daddy not nagging at me
for not coming home for i think
1 month.
shit!

angie helping me block daddy's bullet!
thanks baobei
no mood blog neh
going die soon
ARHHHHHHHHHHHH.......
die die die

2008-09-22T02:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY ONE MONTH BABY DEAREST

pictures will be post soon.
quarreled with mel.
i wont & dont wanna explain too much
wasting my time & breath.
over all, those who understands me aint much.
i shall name those who understands me.
baby angie
<3>(though theres quarrel btw us not long ago but
're still one of those who understands me.)
valarie
<3>(we drift but u know who i am & what i am)
shermin
<3>(cause 're always by my side though not physically but mentally)
sotong; rebecca
<3>(u know my all about my life. and the bullets we block for each other)
irwan
<3>('re dear to me)
yuky
<3>(at least somethings u know i wont joke with or LIE)

hummm, i'm disappointed in many things and many people
but i've learn to put down everything & everyone.
no point cause its wasting my time.
irwan taught me, old ones dont go new onw wont come
so i think its time for "some" new friends
and fuck those "old" ones.
anyway if you people think i'm the one who spam 're blog,
den 're so wrong.
go ahead & think is you wan
seriously
what i've done i dare to admit
but this i dare say i never
cause i mean thats the fact
soyonara old friends....
or should i say fuck off old friends?
i dont knoe.
no point wasting my brain power to worry & get stress up because of them
like i say those i treasure isnt much.
our friendships are just like ice-cream
once they melt, their gone
den its time to buy a new one.
so well,
till next time peeps

PS: to THOSE old friends,
learn to cherish & get your facts right before u say say things that will hurt others
i swear the word cherish wont appear on you guys from me
ever again cause
once again you guys disappoint me in many ways.

2008-09-19T23:00:00.005+08:00

wednesday night, i recieve a very very very bad news from angie.

something bad happen to weihao & his family.

gosh, think about the fun i just to have with them.

so meet up with angie in the morning at my house planning to visted them.

went to my house downstairs for breakfast.

after that compass point to waste time.

waiting for bus 119 to go back old skol.

i miss time days. i really do.

went amk hub to watch movie neh

and the cinema is totally empty! pui

baby dearest brought me back to his house to sleep

cause i'm superly tired neh...

i slept all the way from 2 plus to 12 plus at night.

super power right hahas

baby dearest brought his superbotak out

went to newton to eat with baby dearest, johnny, peggy & gary

went east coast after that.

bear bear time!

baby dearest spend 124 on all this bear.

i love you.

went pass melmel's blog today.

she's upset.

i left her out.

i'm sorry

i swear i didnt use you to waste time when irwan's working

he complain that i always put friends first and hack him totally.

thats why.

and i haven been feeling well lately.

the most i go was out night and asleep in the afternoon

lies? i've been staying his house eversince the first time.

sometimes we just went out for dinner and den back his house after that.

i didnt take you for granted.

i cant call out the past few days cause of sim card problem you should know that

remember i called u that day wanted to meet you?

you have plans after that so i went to meet others instead.

i guess 're really disappointed with me.

and i dare say not only you who are disappointed.

i'm sorry.

in my previous post i've aready say no more

magnet & metal alr.

so i hope you guys will accept me again.

i'm sorry

2008-09-17T20:30:00.007+08:00

yesterday while on our way to malaysia with baby dearest & barney,
we saw one CBR 400,
his like wearing one full face & dame laolan lah.
baby dearest go for him...
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result, CBR400 went missing
anyway i saw two R1 next.
humm,what day is it neh?
all big bulls are out neh
at singapore custom,
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boring, hot & smelly
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inside malaysia
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ESSO petrol station
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saw a sparks rounding around the petrol station.
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aiming for people to rob
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malaysian robbers sucks
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went out of malaysia
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went to eat
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went seperate ways with barney
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i'm still sick so baby dearest went to his house near by shop to buy medicine for
his the sweetest guy on earth lah!
he suddenly crave for yu tiao
so we walk our way there.
on the way,
he ask me one question,
if let me choose again...
weihao or him
who will i choose?
this question hit me hard on my face.
who will i choose??

SWH brought me tears but at the same time,
the joy & happiness he gave me was irreplaceable.
his the first guy i really wan back in my life.
his the first guy whome i wanna spend my whole life with.
but still his my past, my ex...

IRWAN gave me everything.
he cares & love me deeply.
he never makes me worry
his a stubborn fellow.
but he wans me to be a good girl.
he wont let anything happens to me.

so i think i've made my decision.
my choice is IRWAN.
i told him.
no matter who returns,
i'll still choose you!
cause i love you

no more romances with baby dearest.

now my girls & beeeeee.

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saturday is booked by judi BEEEEEEE

i know i left you out this past few months

but i'll make it up

i swear i will

hahas this coming saturday, cant wait.

sotong, its a random thing that i actually see our older post.

i misses the times.

i promise no more magnet & metal with irwan

and spend more times with you okays,

're with me when i'm sad

and i cant be with you when 're depress.

this i feel guilty.

sorry darlg

my girls,

i haven forget all the happy times we spent together

pls come back to me.

cause i miss you guys deeply

2008-09-17T00:09:00.006+08:00

BABY JOLENE IS SICK!

gosh, i'm having cough & flu neh

baby dearest cant sleep well yesterday

due to my non-stop techno coughing.

Jurong Hill <3

baby dearest brought me to jurong hill...

sweet & romantic neh.

but didnt stay long cause i wanna go changi airport.

enjoying the wind.

finally after 30mins of ride,

we reached changi airport

Humm, what's that? O0O its the control station.

parking his bike at the carpark,

we walk our way towards T3

His the light of my life...shine baby shine
had our very early breakfast at kopitim,

his the present god have gave me.

our love was so sweeter den his ice kachang

Our love is sweeter den his ice kachiang

right after our very early breakfast,

baby dearest makes my day.

we went for early stroll at T3

memories he gave me at T3 .

after our very early strolling at T3,

we have found our way into love

we walk our way towards the skytrain going to T2

we were talking about how long we haven

travel in public transport.

and at the same time,

we were talking pictures all the way towards T2

final stop, viewing point at T2.

tired & sick

home sweet home

woke up dame early today...

baby dearest got his car lesson today.

after he was awake,

i went back to ZzZ

we went over to val's house after i'm awake.

and its like 5 plus in the evening hahas.

kuku i waited for nearly and hour for the kuku lah

went to changi chalet after that...

hungry & bored,

i went geylang to find baby dearest

we will be going malaysia later

well, tha ts all for today neh.

2008-09-15T21:41:00.007+08:00

baby, 're my prince & i'm 're princess!
woke up around 4 plus yesterday
went straight to baby's shop...
i'm like craving for bishan's pork rib tea.(dont now what's its call in english neh)
instead of bringing me to bishan,
we eat geylang's pork rib tea.=)

sweet as sugar; close as magnet! <3
because of johnny's lateness,
we cant close shop early!
dame it.

sweetest kisses, memories @ eastcoast.
after johnny reach,
went over to baby's house there for supper.
prawn noodle for me & baby
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prawn noodle without prawn & noodle for johnny.
(okays) its a prank we're playing.
the aunty's going mad hahas.
we decided to go east coast to celebrate lantern festival=)

baby dearest caught all this for me!
instead of playing candles & lanterns,
we went to catch bear bear,
baby caught all this for me!
i love you baby boy!

they miss their childhood ... i miss mine too!
while johnny, baby & junchen was catching bear bear,
peggy and co. playing car car.
hahas they shall miss their childhood neh =)

join us! hahas barney arh, the carcar wanna spoil le neh

merry go round & big ugly dino! ROARRRRRRRRRRRR
went mac to rest.
went back back baby's house.
tired & shaggggggg.

baby dearest's work of art!

hello kitty PGM. with my code on it. <3

though its just a toy bike but the effort means everything.

're my everything boy.

i know you love me!

2008-09-14T21:39:00.007+08:00

she is proudly attach to irwan<3

& his the right key to her lock eversince 080808!

to melmel sweetie:
thanks for your hellokitty.
see what i've done to it=D

hahas i love you & miss you!

compass yesterday dame crowed neh.

everyone was passing secrets

& knife seems to be back stabbing people.

complicated & messy.

i'm tired & sleepy neh.
sotong want frankie dont want me le.

but at least i've still got baby, mel & rachel.

they gave the security & love.

thanks darlgs...

i miss my girls.

its been a long time since i hang out with them.

i want to meet up with u girls,

i really do.

i cherish you girls like my own

blood sisters.

nothing can replace you girls.

this i promise you girls.

went in malaysia with baby, johnny & peggy.

gosh its fucking jam lah!

& lucky i've got my psp to accompany me through the journey

into singapore custom.

our next plan was to rush to plaza sing

to catch out 215 movie

so we rush out like nobodys business neh.

speeding & cornering.

exciting exciting exciting.

we got to ps at 220.

that was dame fast lah!

finally rush on time to watch "the days"

and guess what dame it!

its 230 alr and the fucking show

haven even started yet neh.

gosh!

anway its a nice show.

went back baby's house.

its lantern festival today!

we've got our plans.

lovessssss people

2008-09-13T23:42:00.004+08:00

yesterday went to cinelesure with baby & barney intented to watch "the days"
however, the show is only shown in gv cinemas so wtf!
we got to watch babylon AD instead.
while waithing, guess who we saw??
HUIHUI & BOONLONG.
and the most funny thing was we actually watch the same movie & same timing.
inside cinema...
i was playing with baby and i bite his veins.
gosh! he was dame angry neh!
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everything was okay after that.
am sorry deardear!
stupid show with stupid ending
i dont even understand lah!
went hm sleep after that.

2008-09-12T20:51:00.003+08:00

meet up with sweetie this few days along with rachel.
life was a bored man.
sweetie call me to tell me someone i know spam her blog.
wonder who the fuck he/she is.
hey no matter what u ppl say,
sweetie & me is unseperated one.
why not just call me and tell me.
dont spoil our relationship.
anyway went pasir gudang again with my baby boy
& johnny & her girl.
its wonderful.
but as baby went faster,
my heart pump faster.
anyway i'm too lazy to update. <3

2008-09-07T01:24:00.002+08:00

Am back!
didnt have time to post past few days.
life as usual was bored.
bleah~
spent most of my precious time
either at compass point or hougang mall.

went down to kovan hub with mel.
serena's so call ssb boyfriend called.
thought he would scare us by telling us his a ssb.
humm, think about it,
even if u ask a bloody policeman wearing uniform
to talk to us, we dont give a dame.
and joke if the day.
he said sorry to me.
HELLO PPL!
A SSB ACTUALLY SAID SORRY TO ME.

went compass today to meet caicai pass her cig
& sweetie pie melmel.
saw amanda & estella neh
estella ps amanda because of a guy.
humm 're a fat pig man.

nothing much to say.
to angie if you come across my blog,
think of all the things i've done for you before
saying our friendship is so fragile k.
thats all for today ppl

2008-09-05T00:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a boring day neh!
rain the whole day.
erkkk!

seriously sometime my life seems so colourful
but actually the fact is its fucking bored lah!
no more rounding like the past!
sometime she really miss her old life neh.

went plaza to have my dinner with boy & rachel.
extra soya sauce please.
boy went to work
so am left with rachel darlg.
mel's at home enjoying her princess life.

went home after that ZzZ!
went geylang for dinner den plaza!
see!
my life is boring!

2008-09-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

i was at boy's shop the whole day.
stuck to the comp & thinking of the past tense.

boy said johnny sound sleepy when he called him just now
so went in malaysia ourself neh.
went dwn bukit panjang to meet yongyun.
gosh, he just buang bike neh.
bleeding leg & disfigured tattoo.
baby don buang too.
bleeding mouth & bleeding leg.

went boy's house to watch dvd after that.
gosh shag & tired
but still wanna watch finish those show we bought
in malaysia =))

i miss i miss i miss.
i think i think i think
i wan i wan i wan
you you you you you

2008-09-02T20:03:00.009+08:00

once upon a time, baby jolene is still and ordinary girl living her her ordinary life.

and like normal fairytales, she found herself a prince.

however, the only part that is not normal is that

there was no happy ever after.

her prince dump her one side and left with other girls.

her heart was broken into million pieces but

she's still waiting for his return!

went in malaysia with baby =)

there was a total of 5 bikes but all big bikes.

haya, R1, R6, CBR400 & one i myself isnt shall what it was.

we reach pasirgudang

however due to sunday is malaysia's national day

monday is CLOSE!

its like a total waste of time,petrol & SWEAT!

well they was sadded by that so instead of playing on

those kuku play on rd!

fast & furious here they goes.

worst thing was when i see my viser, there was a dead, roti prata fly!

guess u guys arga arga know how fast was it right.

i was dame tired yesterday & fall alseep while going back to singapore ZzZ.

went over to baby's house to sleep.

after that straight to town to meet up with sweetie pei mel & rachel

lion dance competition suck this year neh.

so we decided to go dwn plaza after that.

meet up with felicia goh whome i haven seem for weeks.

played pool & went home after that.

went sengkang to do some stuff &

meet up with laogao at caicai's house downstairs.

boy come fetch me.

love isnt easy to find.

love isnt easy to catch.

love isnt easy to let go.

love isnt easy to forget.

2008-08-31T17:42:00.003+08:00

baby make me feel like a princess.

not even weihao make me feel that way before
but baby bully me again the other day

but everything is fine yesterday morning.
he brought me to ica building to make my passport.

i'll be going to malaysia with him tomoro.
his going down track with his fellow bikerS friends.

baby will be wearing full suit neh
hot like shit plus heavy.
poor boy.

slept at baby's house yesterday ZzZ

woke up at 1 plus due to all the vibration from my stupid fone
today is baby angie's birthday neh

baby,bernie,yuky,rachel && martin's coming along too.
irwan, 're my lover for the month!

love you plenty
my girls, am so sorry pls forgive me.

2008-08-29T23:48:00.002+08:00

anyway people cnt update any pic.
with with my boy this few days
meet up with shermin today.
hello darlg i miss you.
its angie's birthday on sunday
i'll be coming.
call me when you see this.
went to llk dinner yesterday & today.
boring...
am fucking full lah.
and thanks to mr curry rice!
me & rachel got to drink.
i'll update pic soon okay.
anyway when is my girl free?
i fucking miss the 4 of you.
cause i just meet up with sher & val.
okays update soon.
loves<3

2008-08-27T21:36:00.009+08:00

Monday: 250808

baby lene<3>

you took my heart away

sotong trimming her hair & lene making her nails

went to do mani with rebecca & at the same time she went to give her hair a lil trim.

gosh, went compass to meet sweetie & co.

rebecca was being emo the whole day.

went dwn plaza with chris to meet up with bernie.

see the way we pamper ourself <3

which nail art should i choose?

well, cherry blossom will do den.

the disappointment you gave me really

push me hard on the back.

but you save me just in time

before i roll down the hill.

monday wasnt really a good day,

boy bully me.

he made me cry the whole day.

bang the wall.

headach due to too much crying.

cant sleep.

what have i done my boy?

Tuesday:260808

i love my sweetie

& i know she love me too

accompany mel to suntec for interview.

am sick dame sick due to what happen yesterday.

but she's alone...

sweetie,sotong & barney thanks for being there for me when am down
went to eat pizza.

yummy.

went expo to find joker

next stop, fantasie.

she's trying hard to pull herself back again

but this time boy help her up

text boy to ask him to becareful while ridding.

he called, heard things i didnt expect to hear.

i tot its really the end.

but boy, he brighten up my day.

your sorry is accepted.

're still being love by me.

080808 cant compare to this.
boy brought me to jurong hill after his work.

you promised me before we will be going there

& you kept it.

i love you boy.

eventhough its not the first time i've been there.

but this time, 're with me.

the feeling is different.

love is in the air

am yours. just yours
Wednesday: 260808

woke up at 3 today.

boy came to fetch me to make sticker for my new helmet.

HELLO KITTY!

hahas thanks.

went ahboy to buy my new evo 2

his making the hello kitty helmet for me & only me.

you mean everything to me.

not because of the hellokitty

but the effort you spent on me.

dont ever leave me again.

2008-08-24T17:51:00.002+08:00

yesterday night was thinking where to go.
cause totally no where to go.
boy got running in the morning & he cant stay out too late either.
so we plan to watch movie.
rachel darlg was at yuky house
so i call her out to watch together.
humm, eventhough we plan to watch movie,
we dont know what movie to watch
hahas we watch nearly every single movie le.
went cine and lucky there's still one show.
" the mummy "

stupid barney. all your fault lah.
say the show not nice.
end up lei. dame nice lor
boy send me home
and mehmeh fetch rachel darlg to my house.
went to my house coffee shop makan.
meet up with qingwei awhile den to
rachel darlg hse to sleep.
just woke up.
going dwn bugis now.
miss my girls
tomoro am offically free.
so i'll make it up to all of you <3

2008-08-23T22:42:00.006+08:00

THURSDAY: 210808

mel & me is back together again <3
went town together.
after that dinner with mummy dearest.
cab dwn to compass after that.
went to watch " death race " at cini with my boy.
caicai called so i went over to compass to find her & laogao.
seat down and start talking crap again hahas.
went home to OrhOrh after that.

FRIDAY: 220808
meet melmel at srg and headed dwn to bugis.
baby angie got herself into trouble again.
and we got to rush dwn amk instead.
guess who's the opposite?
mummy,ahboy & weishen.
dots rite...
face was given.
thanks
meet barney at koven after that
and he brought me over to my boy's shop.
went malaysia to pump oil.
ZzZ barney nearly get himself in to
another nearly accident again.
went back yishun after that....

FRIDAY: 230808
went geylang straight after barney pass me my wallet.
well, i guess i'll be there till my boy close his shop <3
went tp watch "the mummy" at 3.20 at cine.
with rachel & boy.
after that meh came to fetch her home.
and boy send me home <33333

way back into love <3

its a different love.

baby lene && pikachu.

baby lene && doremon

they are back in action.
the sweeties is on their way people.

she's her lover and she's her mate <3

baby lene & her lovely melmel

cherish and protect those infront of me.
her girls,
her boy,
her friend
and
her family.

2008-08-21T11:01:00.004+08:00

yesterday,miss jolene leow was fucking pissed!

dont ask why.

irwan came to find me in the early afternoon

we never expected baby angie to appear out of no where.

irwan went off cause i actually quarreled with him.

den babyangie accompany me till 5 plus.

rachel darlg came down right after skol.

(actually she went hm change first lah.)

we went to mall and back shop &all.

barney was sick but he still make an effort to come dwn.

hahas thanks.

yuky came dwn too & she needs to rush hm after tt.

went home after that.

to mr martin:

eh, 're fucking irritating me.

gosh from the start, i tot you were those quite quite kind

but am WRONG! you can make me feel piss everytime

i see you msg or hear your calls.

please, leave me alone.

i've gt no choice

thats why i say i'll wait for you.

so get your facts clear k.

seriously i dont care how much you love me.

bullshit && craps.

so learn to stay away from me

cause am not your cup of tea.

there wont even be a lil memories

not to say story.

am heartless in the senses that

i know my stand.

dont downgrade yourself over a girl please.

went late supper with mr ass hole,

opps sorry.

after that off to compass to meet caicai & laogao.

bro, we'll always full of craps.

thats what makes us close back.

9 september sam sam's birthday.

we'll help her celebrate next yr ya.

we love her, she knows it.

sp?

isnt that a class 2B bike?

so dont try to act as if your fucking hell bike is

a bloody class 2 bike loser.

fix your bike before acting like your a bloody hell

tweety bird racing in a cartoon race with a lil bike that cant run!

anyway do you know that a bike can actually win car?

OoO i forgotten 're a scary tweety bird thats afraid of blows.

well den fuck it and ride a bicycle den.

OoO one more thing before anything please kick your fucking

bike so that it could destroy your ugly paint work

and you finally got an excuse to change your paint work.

well, maybe tweety bird will do =D

people always say girls goes for bike.

sp? not a bad bike but saddest thing is,

its got a bad rider.

well you may go after those we actually got bike

but think about it.

NOT ALL THOSE GUYS YOU CHASE AFTER

FOR THEIR BIKES WILL WANT YOU!

end of story.

you brought laughter into my life.

it doesnt matter if its a class 2 bike or 2a

the most important thing is,

're in my life.

even as a friend

am blissed.

2008-08-20T15:34:00.002+08:00

guess i walk the wrong way again.
am still the stupid dame ass girl in the world.
stubborn as always.
gosh.
but what the hell.
you reach my limits already.
my head feel like it has bust out!
get out & get lost~
thats all i can say.
no point wasting my time.
sorry to those i dua yesterday.
am suffering from lack of sleep.

2 days has pass.
like i planned, i need to make a choice~
old life or you.
guess am chooseing my old life after all.
but this time the choice is not with me. its with you
you made the choice for me so i think i just got to follow den.

life would be boring. i swear it will.
and am back to who i am all over again.
i've got to repeat what i'lve done all over again
am shag & i tired.
but i need to do everything all over again.

missed?
no more i think.
think?
hack.
love?
shit you!

byebye to my dearest barney
byebye to every single memories that happen this past few weeks.
hello to my old life. ( shit me )
hello to newstuff that is coming my way. ( it wont be better anyway )

2008-08-19T13:12:00.011+08:00

R-6. humm what can i say.
its the best thing that happens in my life.
nt even a R-1 can compare to it!
&& i mean it dude.

isnt it cute?

i was never the sweetest girl in guys heart,
but am the lil devil that makes everyone laught.

i aint that kinda girl that shut their mouth & trying to catch people's attention
but am the girl who tells you straight to your face when i've got something to say about you.

i am not that kinda girl who gives guy my heart easily
but when i get serious with you! am just like a crazy fan falling head over heels over you.

i doesnt have the passion for bikes
but i love them like how mother love their daughters.

i am learning how to turn myself into a women
but am still a little girl in people's heart.

Friends, i missed.
They will be back, i guess.
I still love them, its true.

the rider & the bike.
which one will you choose.
i once choose the bike.
but now i upgrade to the rider
who stole my heart.

To WeiHao:
the moment i see you,
the voice in my heart repeated itself a thousand times.
there's no way you & him is gonner be back.
memories stays but the guy's gone for good.
in your heart & in your head.
say your last goodbye & remain as friends.
thats the only thing you can do for yourself & him.

where's the love she is granted to when she's born into this world?

sometimes, she always tells herself.
girl, 're a grown up now.
learn to love yourself more den anything in this world.

i was never beautiful
& neither am i ugly.
&& all i am,
was a little girl learning to become a women.

it depends on the rider's skills that actually can give the pillion the thrill.
and sometimes its the rider that give the pillion the thrill.

she still needs love to make her life balance.
she got friends, good friends, best friends && for life friends.
all she need is just a little love chemistry.
to make her life full with colours.

went to watch 12 lotus with wan, barney &co.
it wasnt a boring show but am just playing psp inside the cinema.
dimsum after that & sengkang to meet up with caicai & monkey.
congrats to huihui & ahlong.
warning has been given
but sometimes, love is so bline that
people treat it like a bird is chipping.

she got the explaination she wans.
so she's no longer angry.
her feelings is getting more deeping when time pass.
she love you & she hopes to see you & your ride everyday.

2008-08-18T04:26:00.004+08:00

lalala

am back=)

i miss my girls & my dear sotong.

this few days wasnt as bad as the past.

i think am falling in love again.

but this time i totally have no confidence in myself.

and things seems walk the negative way.

humm, because of ahlong, this is the first time i quarreled with melmel..

its a long story so i wont even wanna say anymore.

but i miss her. i miss her laughter.

she means alot to me. just like i've got myself a twin sister.

contact? i wish to msg her everyday but it seems that

she doesnt have time for me anymore=(

i seems to love "chu" now a days.

the someone can really affect my mood like totally.

dont ask me why cause i dont even know!!

i miss my old life. but he brought fun & laughter into my life.

but he also brought jealousy into my life toooooo.

poor me=(

its seems that somethings can actually

make ppl see through others.

love, am falling behind.

am lossing all my confidence because of YOU.

finding true love isnt easy

but i seems to always fall for the wrong person.

even theres someone by my side to guide me,

i still stubbornly walk the wrong way.

someone save me please.

To that someone special.

" you can actually make me jealous easily

and the way you express your care actually make me fall for you even more

but i for once, i think i should not walk this path.

cause i'll be visiting the heartbreak doctor sooner or later

but still, thanks for the memories...its something special "

i haven seem my girls for 1week plus i think.

saw weihao today.

my mood is like going left den right.

left: happy

right: missed & saddness.

i miss someone but at the same time,

i miss weihao.

gosh! why are guys messing up my lovely life?

shit them!

am praying that "someone" will soon be present in my life ahead.

and put weihao at the back.

but still...

the question stays...

will you be mine??

2008-08-12T20:09:00.004+08:00

JOLENE IS PISSED!
sometime's i really regret doing somethings that can affect my life !
FUCK AHLONG! FUCK SOMEONE!
backstabbing hurts!
is totally underground lah!
i hate you!
no point doing it underground cause i can play along with you.
but 're my friend, 're my sister.
why???????????????
cant you give me some life?
you know my stuff!
no point telling him right.
am dame shock and at the same time pissed when i heard it from others.
how will u feel if i do that to you?
conference. UNDERGROUND AGAIN!
what the fuck...
am not angry cause we are all friends
but what with the emo-ing & cause am angry?
OoO and fishing...
i admite i do fish guys but thats how we always express ourself.
you know it yourself.
am not a evil person you know.
but i just dont get it,am suddenly e devil among u guys.
trust? i dont think so....
love? fuck it man

2008-08-10T13:42:00.002+08:00

am too busy to update pic.
8 of august!
wwooww.
its the most memorial day.
went out with bernie, mel & huihui,
and i got to sit on R6.
so felicia, 're not the only one now.
my ridder was a/w
he really went fast and furious.
went to many places && there's more den 15bikers.
the rest is either class 2a or class 2 bikes.
there's like 3 to 4 2b bikes.
they really make my day!
r6 r6 r6!
i cant wait to get my license!
a/w fetch me home in the morning.
thanks<3
yesterday went to ms with my familys to see fire works!
wenlong was working and he lead us right infront to see fire works.
went out with them after that along with mel & hui.
shermin happy birthday<3
sorry yesterday i cant be there cause i was with my family before that.
GOSH! bernie nearly buang.
why? cause some asshole went top speed and hit into a cabby
buang right infornt of bernie.
its dame lucky that he pull back just intime.
i cried cause it all happen right beside me.
mel nearly got into a accident.
how i wish the person was me and not mel....
sorry darlg. am really sorry.
cant explain my feelings yesterday.
wasnt happy at all!
i just dont feel happy!
more of a jealous type!
humppppps.
wadever, am back to work
i miss baby angiee.
and i miss my SOTONG!
and worst still i MISS MY GIRLS!
my head is like full of shit now.
just hope that the shit can clear things out soon.
girls i miss u guys.
meet up soon<333333

2008-08-06T00:42:00.002+08:00

ok. am not gonner post anything today.
went bugis with rebecca && co.
shop like mad.
i've got more new clothes.
went changi after that. LOST MONEY ARH!
ran out and went to llk there.
ate mac and went home
went to work as usual...
broke up with the stupid hanting today.
i dont know whats happening around me.
just because am his gf doesnt mean i need to know everything.
since it ended den i shall not mention so much anymore.
baby angie came to find me today.
guess what...
some asshole steal our fone.
daddy dearest saw that guy selling it take took it back.
so we are suay or lucky?
BABY ANGIE FINISH PROBATION LO!
my life will be more wonderful now.
got ah qiang & beng accompany me=D

2008-08-04T06:16:00.008+08:00

6 black helmet all on one bike
went over to sotong's house to sleep yesterday night.
daddy called at 11...his pissed
but i went back to sleep again.
he called at 130. i chiong to his place.
his in fucking bad mood! DD dint report to work today.

i missed the old days. rounding every single night.

loyang tua pek kong!
my plans for today:
meet up with baby and go rounding.
but baby spoil my plan AGAIN!
went llk to meet baby don they all
went over to tua pek kong after slacking for 2 hour plus.

i promise you before, i'll go back to my old life.
benni lend me his bike=D
things was smooth when am ridding it.
but the bike fall right after my body weight leave the bike.
first though, save the bike so i put my right leg down.
down goes his bike.
humm imagine the situation...
bike lying on my right leg and my body is on top of the bike.
cant imagine but it actually happen
it really hurt alot.

i would rather be the one injured. to me, bike always some first.
the ka-ta was slightly bend,
and LOOK AT THE BRAKE!
totally U sharp.

one by one, they are gone. left with 3.
guilty!guilty!guilty!
benni wasnt angry and he still can say its cute.
but i can tell, his heart quite pain!
sorry sonnie=*(
went back serangoon & meet up with sotong
went her house to sleep again!
am gonner have fun tomoro xD

i wana be the angel, that lead you to heaven.

eventhough my feelings are fading, but the memories
are too stronge that it cant fade away.

if only i didnt fall in love with you that day,
i wont feel heartbroken at all.

you love me, i left you.
am crying, cause i need you
i miss you, but 're gone now
and its my fault, and am alone now.

so close; yet so far

my heart dies when the clock reach 12am.
thats when you leave me forever.

2008-08-03T05:17:00.005+08:00

gosh! bleedy hell...
i waited for cab for nearly an hour.
went to dad's shop as usual...
daddy scolded me like fuck! =(
today seems to be the best day every since i went over to help me dad.
baobei came to find me & she acually push all er friends away
just to accompany me the whole day.
well not the whole day but at least from 1plus till 7 plus.
her probation is ending in like 3 days. yes! she's free bird now.
sotong & meh meh came to find me right after angie left!
i wasnt alone today=)

daddy fetc us back to serangoon.
but when he turn right at my house carpark entrence,
we actually bang into a bike.
i can say, its a quite light bang.
we home to prepare after tat.
went down cine wth rebecce to shop.
CINE is boring!
so ppl i'll let thep ic do the talking den...

we went to tke neoprint
cant remember when was the last time since i took neoprint...
went llk to met beng and home after that.
tata ppl

2008-08-01T12:51:00.004+08:00

you can tell how bored i was yesterday.
daddy's machine gun just cant stop!!
judi came to find me around 6 plus.
went to eat ahjisen after work.
shag shag shag...
martin called, say there is some kinda ghost festival dinner at llk.
i called sotong to go along with me cause i book two ticket for X-file.
went home, and get myself ready.
went to llk & saw baby don they all.
we went off at 11++
went dwn cini,
we rush for the stupid show cause we'll late!
humm, we entered the cinema without anyone collecting our ticket.. COOL RIGHT!

there's no one there to collect our ticket, so we just enterxD

the show wasnt boring, i swear.
we are just self entertaining ourself xD

rebecca's smelly leg.....

she's loved! just cant imagine our life without each other.

she keeps nagging,she miss her old hair.
well, black suits you too darlg

we aint like what you think we are xD
closer den anything in the world!

its just a random thoughs...
weihao, tianhao & me...
K-box.
rebecca & me actually work all the way to ps.
saw cartel...
went there to slack after watching soccer match that day
with weihao & tianhao.
gosh! how i wish thoses memories were gone...

we went to eat prata after that hahas.
love you sotong...
i miss my girls!

2008-07-31T12:34:00.002+08:00

my girls take a look at this pic!
JOLENE simply hates FELICIA ( nt my girl )
bytch, slut, PLK...
well to me, she's just a disguesting f*uckier=DD
no point acting an angel.
're simply not.
and for heaven sick,
dont you dare say rebecca anything...
haven get a chance to see your fucking face chui yet right..
you can say am a ahlian and i dont mind being one
cause ahlian hate bitches and your are one of them.
use your big expanded hole & butt to think before talking.
your bf is totally nothing...pls think am scare huh.
acting innocent...hais
thats wad PLK does...that explain why.
warning have been given to you.
so use your hole & butt to think before doing anything stupid.

daddy brought me to teban garden.
hey, thats where nummy stay.
daddy still wanna find back me step father.
how old alr...
anyway went back serangoon,
meet up with rebecca & went to NUH.
beng seems to be ok.
just that a lil weak.
baby went chalet.
pissed pissed pissed.
went back hm
meet up with rebecca at 3plus
baby came down to find me.
his irritating me lah!ass hole.
get well soon beng...

2008-07-30T11:56:00.003+08:00

No pictures today people.
cause i was dame shagg yesterday
even felicia said that too.
went to meet my girls at plaza after work.
and felicia saw terrance hahas.
he was here with his friends to play pool.
mehmeh came to find me.
also donno for wad.
after that went to accompany terrance talk cork.
and i got a chance to ride his bike.
but die bike twice.
this prove that am still not good enough
so baby, its your turn to teach me!
baby came down afterwards.
brought him to meet my girls.
am dirty & smelly
so baby brought me home to bath.
quarreled with daddy dearest
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
stupid steven went to complain that am always very late home.
daddy was angry so told me to be hm at 1 everyday.
i seriously cant be bothered.
val called me when am on my way home.
asking me to bring baby along to changi chalet...
baby think for a very long time and finally ok.
felicia ask terrance to tag along so he actually came along.
plans: fel W terr && me W baby.
saw baby don, he was asking me how many boyfriends do i have.
humm people please take note
JOLENE & RUNPENG, BREAK LO.
JOLENE & WEIHAO, BREAK LO
JOLENE IS ATTACH TO HANTING.
understand =D
baby brought me home at 3 plus.
went work as usual...
i bought myself a DVD player to entertain myself when am bored. in the shop.
beng buang bike=(
so i'll be going NUH with sotong to see him.
he cant move his hand & neck. poor guy...
angie came to find me just nw.
okays nothing much.
wait till tomoro yea.

2008-07-29T12:55:00.008+08:00

dint have time to update past 2days so here's the recent post =D
here's are saturday's picture that i promise to post yesterday but i didnt...
sorry ppl.
saturday's funn!

am waiting....&& still waiting

junction 8's toilet! waiting for angie...she's dame long

i look like an idiot. take a helmet take cab!
all thanks to baby!

i miss the times he actually hug me in the cab,going to bishan
but too bad...

baobeis <3>

Angie && Jolene

Never Be Replace <3

before make up & after make up! totally different!

Night activities with my GIRLS at ps.

cartel service sucks but we still enjoyed cause we'll together.

brought felicia to go rounding with me.

black helmets are simply the nices colour<3

baby brought me to cosy bay!!<3

i miss my melmel. and we finally meet up at kovan hub.

i aint sweet but baby still love me.

JOLENE is LOVED!

i finally got my geisha on my back instead of my leg

eventhough its not what i really wanted cause

i dont wanna strip & baby wont allow it anyway.

sunday's post.

darlg tong came to find me at work.

talk alot.

i simply love to talk to her.

she was phychoing me to dye BLACK HAIR!

and i've got no choice but to say yes!

she came to my house to dye her hair.

we made a mess and my poor cousin got to clean the mess up.

but i repaid her by buying milk for her. she's happy.

baby came to fetch me with his friends.

gosh strangers!

i tot i'll be along at cosy bay.

but terrance bear bear brought peirong to accompany me.

thanks terrance.

went to eat supper and went home after that.

monday's post.

went kovan to find melmel after i woke up.

baby booked in in the morning=(

peirong came and we went to penesular for our tattoo.

finally got my geisha and its fabulous.

love you joe & co.

peirong got a fairy from my fone.

well it came out not bad either.

went mall to find val & home.

night activities,

well no comments.

tuesday's post.

baby pass his TP.

so from now on, its 8-5.

more time for me, more time for us.

he will be coming to fetch me after work and

hopefully not late again cause his still at camp

& he stay JURONG.

hey thats freaking far lah!

baobei came to accompany this afternoon after her skol.>3

after that felicia came.

i wasnt alone today. YEAH.

anyway slacking at plaza now wih felicia.

waiting for time to pass & baby to reach.

i cant wait........

2008-07-27T15:51:00.002+08:00

yesterday i was late for work AGAIN.
daddy was even later.
i was freaking tired. gosh ZzZ
baobei came to find me yesterday.
she love me alot.
and i love her too!
ended work at 4 cause i wanna go out!!
daddy was giving me a f*uck face
but i only care about where to go later
and what are we doing later.
baobei accompany me home.
took dame long to prepare
and she's nagging me!!!
finally jolene's done and bishan here we go.
slack there and totally doing nothing much.
baobei next time lets do something more fun kays.
we took plenty of pictures which i'll only post it tomoro
went plaza at night to meet up with shermin they all.
our plan: WATCH MOVIE.
went to ps but all movies before mid-night is full.

went to eat at cartel instead.
gosh the services sucks.
china ppl here and there.
WTFwhen we'll working there, things are much better.
went to boatquay:canto rock after that.
i took a fucking hell helmet and took mrt~
no face! no face! no face!
wanna ask why right.
cause am going out tonight on bike!
GOONGOON<3>

hanting, terrance, alven & his GF came to fetch us.
yesterdays plans were spoiled lah!
yishun dame...
after that stop by tp...
my house...
serangoon mac...
and HOME!
sorry fel,
it was supposed to be the best day in your life
but some ppl actually spoiled it.
but this wont be the last time ure out. i promised.
anyway some ass hole came to view my blog
which actually got some comments about her
well guess what did she do...
lil girls doing COMPLAIN
and i was ask to edited my post!
i dont think there will be any edit post anytime
cause its my blog my life,
if 're not happy seeing it,
dont come & view or call me out to confront me!
i've got my rules.
not happy fuck off
really not happy contact me and ask me out!
fucking not happy! LETS PARTY TOGETHER!

2008-07-26T11:36:00.010+08:00

you know,

i haven have so much fun

eversince i got together with someone.

meet up with juju at cini yesterday night.

do you now the happiness when you finally got to meet someone for months?

hahas go and feel it,

it feels wonderful.

we went to buy ticket for " the dark knight "

SHOPPING TIME DARLG!

i bought a dress which judi actually say it looks like apron!

i boutght quite alot of tops yesterday!YEAH

gosh! i realise that i haven really been shopping for months

and thats so not cool at all!

hello new cloths!

went to eat kfc after that.

humm when was the last time i ate kfc with you?

its like at fareast with weijian & rebecca when they are still together =D

went outside long john to seat.

there's still1hour to go.

we chat alot.

chat about the changes in us,

our life,

our past,

cartel life

and many many more.

we went crazy start taking photo for each other hahas.

suddenly we talk about weihao and boy.

it seems that we actually meet up with the same guy who gave us happiness

but also pain

PHOTOS TIME

2008-07-25T13:37:00.003+08:00

she's crazy about geisha!
Am crazy about geisha!
i really need to do something about it.

yesterday went plaza after work.
baba brought us to compass point!
i saw some cb ppl.
went to xiaobai house dwnstairs slack.
talk alot anyway..
went plaza to meet up with soksok.
after that home sweet home.
meet rebecca up for supper.
girls talk was never short.
gosh! how can felicia(not my girls)
wanna match make fransca & hanting!
hello sluts his mine...

2008-07-24T15:16:00.003+08:00

i had a dream pass few days.
i really wan a geisha tattoo at my tigh.
i use to want it at my back.
however tinkerbell took over my geisha ideal.
so i think i'll put it soon!
sorry geisha!i still wan you.

yesterday went plaza straight after work to meet alven & HANTING
gosh his cute & i mean really cute.
he ran out of camp not just to take the tor from me.
peirong told him that she's bringing me to malaysia
and he actually ask her not to.
andat the same time ask me not to go in a gentle way
that i cant even say no
here's the sad part,
his going back camp.
so, went home to prepare.
headed down to boonlay W peirong
cause she wanna ask her ex for patch
in the end,
a complicated ended relationship & a broken hearted girl.
he called me when we're in cab going back srg
he consoled peirong & the rest of the time sweettalk with me=)
he promise me that from now on, i'll be the only girl he will pillion.
boy, are you shall you wont break the promised you made?
're suger, spice & everything nice.
& you really know how to please a girl.
& 're allow to be #2 in my heart
you said you will bring me out tomoro
you said that we will go zoo on monday
you said that you will come find me on sunday after your trip.
i'll look forward to this days.
i will...

2008-07-23T11:43:00.004+08:00

yesterday was bored~
peirong came to find me like i mention in the previous post.
i called joe and he will tech me tattoo =D
went straight home after that.
granddad was nagging at me for smoking at home.
daddy called and tell me to
DESTROY EVIDENCE
after i finish doing my crime hahas
his such a joker lah,
i've got to stay at home.
i finally ran out
peirong was at my house.
but val ask me to go dwn changi.
to valarie:
am sorry its really too far.
and am really very tired alr.
you shld no that i'll always accompany you when am not working
but i've got work the next morning
and i hope you could understand.
am really lack of sleep.
sorry sorry sorry
promise sunday i'll accompany you
to anywhere you one k
cause monday am off!!=D

since i've got no more plans,
went to watch late movies the res cliff with peirong.
its a nice movie,
and PEIRONG! I GOT WATCH HOR!
eventhough am msging the whole 2h30min.
but the ending sucks
TO BE CONTINUED~
wtf...
went hm after that.
thanks shermin & enaye.
am not perfect cause no one is,
am not ugle cause am simply not,
am happy with my body & passby's unhappy.
i'll be glad to sponser he/she plastic bags.
but am not sure whether he/she wans it.
hahas.

nameless, i'll be meeting another guy later.

wanna come?

maybe i can intro u or wad

since 're so lonely and boyless=D
pic pic time!

JONG TAKE ONE!

PEIRONG TAKE ONE!

2008-07-22T14:45:00.002+08:00

PARTY TIME!
yesterday,
yetlim, shermin & valarie are planning an outing
well. our last decision was chalet.
guess we are gonner habe a great time there.
their plans were alil funny.
baba gonner be the driver and all
there are bus,lorry, van & NS TANK!
humm, what an outing right. hahas
enaye, fel, sok & me was like laughing all the way lah!

meet sotong at her house downstairs.
am craving for the prata~
so we went to prata house.
we chat alot.
& plan alot.
i pity him.
he got himself a bloodsucker. hahas enjoy boy.

plaza is a boring place.
am so tired & sleepyy.
plans for later.
not sure yet!!
peirong coming fown to find me
thanks girl.
bored bored bored.
there's nothing special this week
so lets wait for the chalet that is coming up girls.
i cant wait.
SHAKE IT HARD GIRLS~

我爱着谁爱
到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而
过好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
my doors are always open for you.
i'll wait eventhough
deep in my heart you wont come back
but i'll still wait without regret.
no one can give me the same feeling you gave me
nope. no one.

2008-07-21T19:40:00.004+08:00

i was fcking bored at dad's shop!
bored bored bored.
went 805 coffeeshop to eat dinner with yetlim, baba & felicia.
its lan time ppl!
lewis called
so i've got to head down to bishan.
bishan was bored.
lewis, ahhong, jason & malvin.
we wait & wait.
GOSH!
daddy called.
and i lied that am at plaza.
he wan's me back in his shop by 5 mins =.="
dots.
he waited for me for 45mins & i still didnt appear.
his angry.
really angry.

i didnt really care much.
hahas went home & sotong called
went out rounding with frankie they all.

99wan here we come.
i suddenly feel bored.
not only because there's no fun
but also because of someone i didnt go out for rounding for so long.
went home after that...
i sleep all the way till 6 plus.
am truely a PIG!
people bomb me through calls & msg
i simply cant be bothered.
i wan my sleep!
next stop plaza~

shocking news yesterday.
ricky say he was shy~~
i understands but i dont care hahas
dont have to be shy over such things mr.
i tot about alot of things yesterday.
half thinking half smiling like an idiot to myself.
hey can someone just use a bat to hit my head real hard
so that i can actually forget the past?
i cant get over him!
i cant forget!
i cant let go!
am going crazy!
angie called me & tell me his at bishan.
asking me to go dwn find me.
baobei, its been 3 days since our last contact
when he told me he got himself a new girl!
please dont torture me

2008-07-20T17:20:00.003+08:00

went to daddy shop early yesterday.
didnt sleep at all!
runpeng && meh meh came to find me for lunch.
kuku bought sotong ball for me.
thanks you =D
fall straight to sleep in daddy's car.
went home after that.
OMG MY AUNTY MOLESTED MY TATTOO!
cant go out.
daddy wants me to have enough sleep
sorry girls.
i didnt meant to dua u guys.

but i actually run out at during mid night.
its sotong's birthday.
how can i miss that.
its dame funny lah.

i took cab to rebecca's house and she actually come
to my house with those bikers.
and den i have to take the same cab back to my house.
the taxi uncle was laughing at me lah. =(
went to shenton way there to eat.
intended to go to geo but after that
those guys tossed coin and we ended up going to cherry.
hahas i ask ricky to come find me in case i cant go in.

its was like wth.
joke of the day lah.
but it was still fun. ricky stay by my side most of the time.
anyway i blow 5 sec casue stupid rebecca keep blowing.
hahas lets play together ya.
GOSH!one of the biker's is likeWOW!
his cute you knoe.

the one who pillion me was drunk
so me and rebecca decided to take cab home && before that
stop at prata house for supper.
we talk alot.
and ricky actually msg me telling me he like me.
gosh. wtf.
ure like a brother to me all along
and suddenly you tell me
you like me...
???
anyway am bored at dad's shop
but..
runpeng && weilun came to find me
thanks...<333
they are like total aunty lah
tapao tibits to camp.
hahas
well...its time to let the pictures to the talk.
cherry! cherry! cherry!
weihao was there before hahas. opps

cherry!!!

happy birthday sotong!

we are stuck together!!!

basket! sotong always steal my pose. MEOW!!!!

2008-07-19T10:29:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOTONG!

thanks girls. for being there for me yesterday when i needed you guys.
both at my dad's shop && when am crying over weihao.
well, jolene thought things out aready
and she's not gonner cling to someone who cant give her any happiness,
i'll turn back to the old jolene.
shermin 're right am stupid but i've learn my lesson.
hahas well actually we all learn our lesson.

daddy's shop was bored.
went to meet up with lewis, boy & namseng.
am glad that me & lewis actually patch things up without any quarrels.
i'll make sure you see a new jolene okay.
no longer the stubborn & naughty monster at home.
instead i'll learn to grow up & see more things around me.
i know you still love me=D

went to she bangs yesterday night with shaoxiong & val they all.
ricky was working so went to meet him awhile.
there was abit unhappiness expression on me & val face
because of someone's gf.
move to canto after that.
well, i actually manage to pull ricky into canto with me =D
but the only thing was he doesnt wanna dance.
canto's dance floor was very quiet yesterday.
at least i manage to dance out all the stiffness that is in me for weeks yesterday.

daddy called and ask me to go hm early
because i still need to be in his shop at 1030.

i cant deny that i actually still love you.
but after yesterday jolene learn to give up
she can find someone much better den you.
eventhough the happiness you gave her was coming out from her heart
but she can find someone else who can give her the same feeling.
she wont be waiting for you anymore.
eventhough she lost you,
she still have her girls.
and well ...
she actually learn to put them always in first place alr.
they have replace you boy.
but she still need time to put her ex boy down
SA-YO-NA-RA

2008-07-18T20:27:00.004+08:00

Gosh...
am so bored.
daddy's really handing over the shop & the car to me!
wth.
well with the car,
i could lend it to weihao
but wad about the shop?

went hm after plaza.
fall right asleep.
and muffy actually lick my hand this morning to wake me up!
thanks.
went to eat breakfast with kuku.
after that went straight to work.
ZzZ am still tired.
angie came to meet me right after she's dismiss from camp.
love you baobei!
i was shock that valarie & shermin came to find me without telling me
join in by felicia & jiki.
love you too girls & my BROTHER.
they actually accompanyed me till shop close.
am so touch.
well i called ♥weihao and his back again.
talk alot but not as much as previous night.
cant say too much.
cause some people will actually scan my blog.
whats so nice scanning my blog??
anyway imai dont be stupid!!
its obvious everything is done by you!
are you trying to act cute?

pictures time!

2008-07-17T22:43:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to party world at shelton way with valarie.

didnt really enjoyed it cause its quite boring.

so i decided to try out my luck.

i called ♥weihao.

and guess what he did answer my called.

and whats really make me happy was both of us was bored

so we start chatting.

when we are together,

he didnt chat that much

and we always seems to have nothign to say to each other.

but when we are apart,

things are different.

why must things be like that?

why cant we be like yesterday?

when we'll still together...

anyway went hm at 7 plus.

bath and out i go to siao ah boy's hse.

bored!!!

meh meh came to fetch me for breakfast =D

join in by mr kuku.

OMG.

daddy get himself into trouble again

and his asking me to take over his shop.

WTF

hello i cant even take care of myself

how am i gonner take care of the shop?

boy am looking forward to today

because 're finally back.

i miss you badly.

i really do.

HOWEVER...

( this is for you guys to guess hahas )

2008-07-16T20:12:00.003+08:00

went changi with val yesterday night.
hahas money in!! $$$
we actually stayed there till 4 plus 5.
and we'll feeding flys.
EEERRKKKKKKKKKKKK!
am actually in a very good mood!
♥♥weihao text me yesterday!
eventhough its like a few msg but
am already flying high!
went over to kovan to meet cai & huiying.
and guess who i saw?
shan && sakura.
hahas we chat alot.
and i really mean ALOT.
went hm after that cause am dying!
my legs are like jelly for standing long hours at changi
and my eyes are like closeing for watching long hours at changi

went to town with val this afternoon.
she got herself a gucci bag &&
i got myself a gucci wallet.
well, something to pamper ourself =D

we went over to fareast to get myself a bag.
and guess who we saw?
P.L.K
val & i was like
" why today so suay "
well at least she didnt spoil our day.
valarie went to work.
so i went over to plaza to meet my ♥girls.

attention to boliao people
cant you guys just like grow up?
calling people and barking ppl for things
when you guys know its not with her.
please.
no everyone have time to entertain your craps.
full of rubbish && childish-ness!
trying to treaten people?
hais.
childish mentality!
i feel so lucky am not in love with you anymore
or else my life will be as childish as yours!
hey. thats something good to celebrate about.

2008-07-15T17:30:00.005+08:00

WARNING:

BEWARE OF THIS " PLK "
SHE'S KNOWN BY BEING A *******!!
TAKE GOOD LOOK AT HER PLEASE!

AND IF YOU EVER KNOW HER,
BEWARE OF YOUR STUFF.
SHE'LL STEAL IT WITHOUT YOU KNOWING IT!

♥♥ felicia && jolene. she one of my gal!
went to kovan hub after slacking at plaza.
i was being pian go there lo.
thanks to cai!
she told me she was bored and wanna die alr.
ended up going there watch scary movie to scare myself.
♥♥weihao called me.

god i was half shock & happy.
eventhough its just a few minutes
but thats enough darlg. am blissed!
went home after watching 2 scary movie!
one was dame gross and the other one was
SCARYYYY!! ARHHHHH!!
guess what,
i overslept for work again.
well...i really need to learn to wake up early or am doom for good!
i was ask by daddy dearest to go his shop today.
i went to make my atm card.
why?
cause am dumb enough to take the reciept
and leave the card at the machine!
sometimes, i can even leave both the cash and card!
i admite am stupid plus dame.
cant deny am alil pissed seeing sotongs blog.
not that ppl actually scold her.
but the picture of " FELICIA "
dont misunderstand its a bitch
who disgrace the name not my gal!
am jealous!! u guys seem so close and am actually
dump aside! =(
but deep inside my heart,
i know my sotong love me!
hahas.

PHOTOS TIME!

SWEETHEARTS && DARLGS ARE ALL LOVE BY ME!

Ps:
i feel weird. Please dont be so nice to me.
i cant fall in love with you!
nope. i really cant

2008-07-14T18:25:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!
yesterday was bored!
woke up in the late afternoon.
and i promise daddy the day before to go help out at his shopat 3plus.
SORRY DADDY DEAREST!
i was slacking at plaza till 7 plus and went to eat with yetlim & dixion.
baba they all came to join us after that.
went dwn bishan to watch movie with them!

me and yetlim actually watch this show the second time.
i call weihao tot of meeting him.
am wanna see him badly.
WEI HAO I LOVE YOU!
but too bad! his at malaysia.
i remembered you promise me to bring me to malaysia one day!
ok. enough with the bad memories.
after that went down kovan hub as i promise cai & mel.
didnt stay long.
went hm after that.
i overslept today and didnt go to work!
am bored.
siao ah boy say am bad.
and am currently waiting for that stupid sotong who always forget me.
been playing house of dead!
bored bored bored~

2008-07-13T18:28:00.007+08:00

this few days was crazy but fun.

1) going around beating the hell out of a few china bitches.
and well they simply run away when they see us. Hais

2) i actually saw someone at queenstown.
and i bet he saw me too but both of us are

acting like we doesnt know each other.
go ahead and click to my blog. see what you want!

3)finally went back to who i was in the past.
rounding everynight. No more boyfriend trouble!

4)though she lost her boy. But she gain back her girls.

5)yesterday went dwn fantasie to help yetlim

& sokcheng celebrate her birthday.<3
shermin was drunk. poor girl! all thanks to BABA!

6)SOH WEIHAO!

2008-07-12T14:59:00.002+08:00

what should she blog today?
okays.
yesterday her dear dear sister sok & fel got into a fight.
with those bunch of humji + loser bitches.
she went to yishun from hub and back to hougang.
sorry yaoming & thanks.
she wont let those bunch of losers off for touching her sisters.
NO WAY!
She was dame pissed when they put them aeroplane.
FUCK!
they never realise people who are from china are so HUM
anyway when back yishun.
OH YEAH! ROUNDING TIME!
went to fetch yuki and went cini.
saw toutou they all! -.-"
alvin was there too
OppXxsss.
went to amk after that.
while stoping at esso,
two 4 police came to spoil mood!!
its my first time kana screen AT GAS STATION!
POLICIA ARE TOTALLY UNREASONABLE!
anyway wadever.
Jason's new gal was there.
her fucking name was felicia.
disgrace to that name
she a cunning fox!
aka hu li jing!
making use of ppl.
hello bitch, mind your eyes okays!
gtg someone wans her to accompany him to queensway.
tata! celebration for sok & yet at boat quay today!
i'll try to make it ya

2008-07-10T18:47:00.002+08:00

SOH WEI HAO!I MISS YOU!
SOH WEI HAO!I MISS YOU!
SOH WEI HAO!I MISS YOU!
SOH WEI HAO!I MISS YOU!
SOH WEI HAO!I MISS YOU!
SOH WEI HAO!I MISS YOU!
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SOH WEI HAO!I MISS YOU!

First time<3

2008-07-09T18:15:00.003+08:00

She did the most stupidest thing yesterday!
F U C K !
She cried the whole night.
S O B !
She needs to gamble on her future.
She got to win. Or not she loose everything
She got 3 words to say.
She love him.
Deep in her heart.
Its impossible for her to leave you. Her soul stay with you. Her heart stay with you.
She ride her first bike.
Ah beng's SP.
Starting was scary.
But after that things went smooth.
However, she got her first fall and her leg is now swallon x)
Its worth it.
Blue-Black at my Cheebye.
OUCH!
She was a good gal today.
Went to work.
She thinks of him.
Even when she's sliceing lemon.
Thats how much she miss him.

what a day!

2008-07-08T15:45:00.003+08:00

she went dwn to kovan hub yesterday
because darlg mel hardly can get off.
angie came to find her and she fucking miss her baobei.<3>

she pray hard for miracle to happen but

all she gets was disappointment.

she went back kovan hub. disappointed and sad.

tears rolling all over her face.

sharon ma saw wad zhiling right in her blog.
angry and pissed,
well thats when taiji started.
she call her bro & all.
sharon, mel & her was whack by a group of guys.
tears were rolling dwn her cheek
and its not the pain
but its how she wish her boy was with her but he wasnt..

right after the taiji,
shemin called they there got another taiji
SHIT!
she went down and well everyone
PIANG ARH!
she was proud of her girls. [ shermin,sok,val,fel & enaye ]
SHE LOVE YOU GUYS!
the tuihong, you guys brought you sisters to shame. 6 vs 10++.
XIASUAY! BUNCH OF LOSERS!
went to llk after that
DISAPPOINTMENT!
went back hub
COOL DOWN!

weihao you disappoint me twice in a day,
thanks.
fucking leave me alone.
stay away from me.
from my heart
and from my life!

pain...
it hurts.
but at least,
she still have her girls & friends

tired

2008-07-07T21:00:00.002+08:00

boy.
goodbye.
i'll miss you.
am tired.
need to rest.

be remember...
i'll wait for you.

Tired Of Love

2008-07-07T14:26:00.003+08:00

okay. she give up aready.
she's going back to who she was before meeting you.
she's tired of love.
tired...
she's tired of everything.
and she's not going stop so long at your stop.
if you dont cherish her,
she's rather be cherish by others.
she losse too many things for you.
she losse a guy who cherish her,
she loose her darling,
she loose many many things.

she's sick and she wanted you to be by her side yesterday.
but you disappoint her once again.
leaving her suffer on her own.
and dont come and tell me busy busy busy.
"house of the dead" was fun.
went dwn kovan hub to help pileng god-sister.
taiji again.
we all know each other.
sharon 1 1 with another girl.
and thats e end of story.
she slack at the pool rm there till morning.
erk. cai is handsome...

today is another new day.
no more you.
memories wont be remembered=D

she was drunk. >.<"

2008-07-06T18:51:00.005+08:00

went down plaza to find my gals.
going to boat quay help felicia and ang baby
celebrate their birthday.
went to bardot as the tables have been book
first round
5-10 with alex.
second round
5-10 with baba
his a killer man
got me drunk.

sweetheart call me today
told me he & ricky was being scolded by sotong.
omg!
i was just being drunk one night and so many things happen.
fcuk.
anyway sorry ricky.
i was the one who cause all this
and i know 're pissed

bitches and fuckers.
brainless people.
hopeless future.
saw your true colours
wont put much hope into it anymore.

this is for mr @@@@@.
actually you can learn to squat and pee from now on.
brainless ass hole .
shrinken balls.\
totally ball-less
corkless bastard.
&& ugly fool.
're just another useless guy cant stand for yourself.
please learn to grow up.

she's loved

2008-07-05T17:34:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!

'RE FINALLY 18!
AND REMEMBER
WE LOVE YOU!

she went to find valarie yesterday.
they ended going boat quaywith shao xiong, benji & alex.
there was a fight.
she's still under age and everything SUCK!

baby thanks for the night. <3
a few hours means everything to me.
love you to the max boy

to her,
she didnt loose much.
cousins means nothing now.
really nothing.
she got her boy.
she got her friends.
she got 1/2 of her family thats enough.
enaye cant wait to see you again.

ass-holes.
stick with that bitch && u guys will die one day. unknown
're a bitch & i cant give a dame about anymore.
stay away from my boy and my girls.
i'll kill u with you ever disturbed them
i mean wad i say!
stay away from us!
're evil

Wtf.

2008-07-05T00:25:00.002+08:00

she's a good girl today,

went to work.

she went to meet her boy today.

she's flying high up to the sky now.

she love her boy.

she was with her lovely sister soh neh neh.

she love her.

and she hope soh neh neh love her too.

she went to songka just now

and she baby fetch her with someone else super four.

cool man hahas

she heard some atuff again

and she's use to it alr

she's only interested in her boy now.

dare do anything to him

" X " 're dead

missed

2008-07-02T21:33:00.004+08:00

dearest this is the first show she watch with you
eventhough both of you watch it at your house
it doesnt matter.
all it matters is 're with her.
but it seems that you wont be with her much longer ya.
its been a few days since both of you really spent time together.
she really miss you
life without you was bored.
sometime, she really hope that you have never entered her life.
she dont wish to miss you every single second of her life.
she dont wish to think about you every single second of her day
but what can she do?
its no one fault except hers.
for falling head over heals over you.

"she once thought you were the right guy for her.
the guy that can really make her listen to wadever you say without fighting back.
but 're doing things that make her feel both of you are not right at all.
she dont want to think about it.
she just wants you to be hers
at least let her have some thinking that you still care
she dont wanna be alone again.
she dont want to search all over again for her love
cause she found you."

everything have memories.
you brought her laughter.
you brought her tears.
all she could do was to shed all the tears away
and tell herself that you still love her.
she hates to lie to herself
but yet she have to.
she dont wanna face the reality.
nope. she dont.
she dont want to be hurt by you.
she still wants to be in her dream that was never hers.

she knows you were always busy doing your things.
thats why she dont wanna irritated you with her calls or msg.
but boy...
she's worried for you.
every time your number shows in her phone,
she make sure she pick it up ASAP.
but everytime most of the stuff you told her was.
" help me with this."
"help me with that"
she sense no care & concern at all.
but it doesnt matter much at all.
at least you call her and she knoes where you are.

this show was the last time she actually spent time with you.
but she wasnt really happy.
but she trys to smile =D

she went to watch wanted yesterday
she went to drink
but 're one msg
"dont drink too much"
cures her everything.
at leaast she still knoes u care.

she still love you,
she always do.

she miss you...

missed && scared

2008-06-30T21:36:00.005+08:00

it seems to me that am totally invisible to you.
my guess was you are tired of me aready.
i seriously thank you for being with me for the pass few days
i really enjoyed ever single moments with you.
and the very early breakfast you ate with me
took my dog for walk together.
am sure that i'll miss you like hell.
and i think my dog miss you too.
and am serious about that
i brought him out for a walk today cause i miss you.
and well she went to the spot where we brought her and seat down on the stone seat.
she dont even want to go for her evening walk and wont stand up till i force her too.
and i told her that " kor kor wont be playing with you anymore muffey. lets go "
maybe 're busy or maybe 're tired of everything
i dont know.

this few days was he best days of my life =D
you were with me..
jocelyn help me design a tattoo which is a heart lock but without the key.
're the only one now who have the key to my heart.
however i think you would rather throw away the key instead of opening it.
went k box to sing and you wasnt enjoying it like how tianhao enjoyed.
i was hungry && you came all the way eventhought you were tired just to accompany me breakfast.
went to watch movie the other day at cathay.
i gave you attituted because banana slap my new tattoo && i thought you were gonner slap like how she did.
am sorry boy. will you forgive me?
am sorry for giving you attituted this pass few days

you didnt really bother about me anymore
did i do anything wrong?
please tell me.
i went to watch the match germany vs spain yeasterday
and how i wish you were there with me.
but you wasnt.
maybe in your heart the games are more important than anything
and that am just someone whome you can spent your time with while waiting for the next match.

i was thinking this few days.
worried at the same time.
thinking about all the things the man said.
put aside this relationship because i will be heartbroken.
and that someone will leave.
and i guess his right after all humm.
how i wish i didnt go that day.
how i wish i didnt enter that room that day.
how i wish all this wasnt true.
i dont blame you and i wont blame anyone
because all this have been arrange by god.

and all i can do now is hope you can return back to me once again...
baby i hope all the things you promise me is true.
you once ask me did you ever lie to me and i replied no.
so dont break your promise to me and that
you wont be the first to leave me.

darlg thanks for the care bear too<3
she has been sleeping with me since the day you bought for me.
i miss you every single second of the day.
i miss your laughter.
i miss all the time you joke with me
and tell me " no joke no fun "
i miss i miss i miss i really miss.
if any god is listening to my pray now.
i wish he is beside me now.
i wish that he will never leave me.
i dont want anyone else just him.
i dont mind walking with him eventhough i have free rides with wings.
i dont mind letting my helmet be collect dust.
i dont mind taking cab to anywhere with you
all i wish is that you are with me.

<333333

2008-06-28T11:35:00.003+08:00

darlg 're being missed.

have been going dwn bishan lately.
i seem to go back to the past.
however this time its different.
euro cup really scares me.
germany oh germany pls win for heaven sick.
spain was indeed luck.
3-0
're luck will different against germany babys.

weihao bought me a care bear yesterday!
its a pink one with rainbow.
thanks darlg.
tianhao was like why i dun have!
hahahs

jason bought me a limited edition charming kitty as a sorry present.
boy, 're doing too much.
but anyway thanks.
he bought breakfast for me e other day.
thanks too.

went to sing k yesterday.
fucking tired!
went hm.

thats his rvf. <3
sotong o sotong
're love
sorry that day am too tired and overslept
ricky o ricky
dun be so beng lah
and wei hao o weihao
simply 3 words for you.
go and guess and den give me a call and tell me

its 26 again

2008-06-26T12:36:00.002+08:00

haven been posting pass few days
hais...
went malaysia yesterday
wasnt funn
heard things that i didnt really expect to hear.
" someone will leave me '
wad the fuck!
anyway i miss my sotong kia
been doing nothing pass few days
working at daddy's place was bored

weilun they will be coming out tomoro
yeah!!!!
missed you guys like hell
but u guys will be called mr botak
hahas
bored

missy lene is back in action

2008-06-23T09:33:00.004+08:00

went to dye my hair not long ago with rebecca =D
we actually dye the same colour. golden brown;blue & ash.
but..my hair seems to come out with actually 4 colours.
golden brown was the base colour.
ash was the back ground at the side
and blue was the font. hahas
but mine actually have one fucking gold wan lah hahas

went dwn bugis to my helmet den after that extent my hair
blue & ash hahas

went out rounding with some of my friends.
my becoming demon soon ppl
after that went dwn weihao house area there to find him.

babe 're loved!

bored bored bored

quarrel with rp yesterday!
its over a stupid matter.
fuck!
hahsa

smiles.
she's being bullied my a slut.
and fucking slut 're so dead!

this few days have been fun.
thanks! <3

happy birthday mel mel
hahas saturday was melme's birthday
celebrated at fantasie.
it was fun
and darlgs i miss you guys

matthew have become my boyfriend ( its just for fun )
i was 85% drunk that day
martell wansmy life man!
anyway happy reading
my feelings for rx is not like before alr.
things have change!